Celebrate This Day!

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Sunlight between tall bare thin trees. Mid-April, 2015. Delong Lake, Alaska

“Work is not always required.
There is such a thing as sacred idleness.”
~George MacDonald

I hope everyone is enjoying the gift of this life we have been given here in America, on this day! Yesterday was the day, my sweets and I celebrated. We went swimming in another lake (not the location in the photo) for the first time in at least 10 years! There were baby ducks swimming around us and, so many people just out enjoying the sun! Today, it’s raining lol. No worries, I am still happy 🙂 And I hope you are too!

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Nothing but Roses

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A vibrant red rose the size of a cabbage in McKinley Park, Sacramento California.

“Children begin by loving their parents; as they grow older they judge them;
sometimes they forgive them.” ~Oscar Wilde

In the late afternoon, on my birthday we went to McKinley park in Sacramento, California which has a poignant place in my memory. It is a secret marker, a milestone of sorts. It was important for me to return, and my daughter’s family made that happen.

We strolled around the pond first, we looked at and photographed trees (well I did) and we also got to introduce her (my Granddaughter) to some baby geese! Once she saw them, she was captivated! A lady jogger ran through them, getting close to the babies and taking photos on her cellphone. It was at that moment, my Granddaughter recognized that as bad and said “no,no, no!” It was adorable.

She and I held hands and walked around the roses. Each was a brand new gift of excitement and wonder to her. It was fantastic! She expressed in her youth and inexperience, just exactly how I still feel when I look at beautiful flowers. She didn’t want to walk on the grass, so we stuck to the paved pathways. This walk through a park, will also be one of the greatest times of my life and I am forever grateful.

Update: She’s conquered her hesitance towards the grass!

Effort

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My European deli meal for my birthday! April 6, 2015 in Sacramento, California.

For my birthday my daughter flew me out of Alaska, and down to California! I hadn’t seen her in almost 8 years! She paid for my ticket so that I could meet my two wonderful Grandchildren. It was a major blessing, there are just no words to describe how incredible it was!

We went out with the babies in the stroller, and took a nice long walk around the neighborhood together.  Visiting thrift stores, and a variety of shops. We came across two European deli markets and had a lot of fun looking at all the different foods, spices and other items. We picked up a jelly roll cake, a potted meat from Poland, a vegetable soup from Ukraine (I think) and some marinated mushrooms from behind the counter at one of the shops. I also bought myself a KINDER EGG! The prize was an adorable glow in the dark ghost holding a red & white lollipop! One of the grossest things I picked out were chocolates with alcohol like vodka in them! Eww lol!

The greatest thing about this meal, was that my daughter and granddaughter were so willing to eat the food and try new things with me! It made me really happy! I remember as my daughter got older, we didn’t sync anymore. I can’t blame her. During some of the most formative years of her life, I turned into a horrible selfish drunken sobbing mess. I had a mid-life crisis in my twenties!

Even with my past, and everything that I went through… she should have always been my priority! I should have made more effort! It’s a wound I cannot fix. It is there, and that time is lost. It is, what it is and no matter how sorry for it all that I am – it cannot be undone. So, to have her do something so wonderful and reach out to me. To bring me to her family, and to welcome me with open arms, and make the effort to eat a silly meal with me… was and always will be on of the greatest memories of my life! I am grateful.

If Only

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Paper people cutouts hand in hand. Hung in the windows of ANMC, mid-April of 2015.

“If only I may grow: firmer, simpler, quieter, warmer.” ~Dag Hammarskjold

Expending Energy

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Rainy flowers on a shrub, in April of 2015. Mid-day. Sacramento, California.

“Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.” ~Albert Camus

The Dancer

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A tree in my daughter’s front yard, in Sacramento California. Taken in April of 2015.

“Everything in the universe has rhythm. Everything dances.” ~Maya Angelou

On the Rocks

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Rocks at the beach, April of 2015.

“Every time you don’t follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness.”  ~Shakti Gawain

Persistence

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Flowering tree. May 28th, 2015. It is summer.

There is something that pulls at me, it is persistence. I’ve always had a fondness for “invasive species” in plants. Dandelions, horsetail, butter & eggs etc.. there is something extremely comforting in an entity that will not quit. Just like my sweet, he has never stopped trying to be in my life, even when my life is undeniably sucky. He makes me feel valuable, sometimes I feel like that’s a bad thing. Usually, it’s when I feel the need to devalue myself – a dance every so often I must complete.

Time

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The beach, Fire Island in the far background. Early summer, 2015. Sand, sea, sun.

Time is what we want most, but… what we use worst. ~William Penn

Different Directions

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Branches, spread out in different directions. April 19, 2015.

My emotions have been pulled in so many directions, very much like fresh pulled taffy. It’s hard to explain my worries, thoughts, ideas, dreams sometimes even to my own best friend. When my mind is left unchecked, things can get out of hand ~ so you might see some upcoming posts about that.

The reason I dropped off the map was due to shipping my laptop off for repair. HP sent me a box, and shipping materials and a prepaid shipping label. The thing that took the longest was getting me to actually pack it, and drop it off at Fed Ex. It has now returned, keyboard fully functioning! I could have posted some kind of blogs from my phone but, as I mentioned I’ve been kind of a working-in-progress mess lately! Oops!

Thank you for continually checking my little blog, and as always your support!