Aviation Musem

Yesterday, on my sweets birthday we went to the Alaska Aviation Heritage Museum. It was a wonderful experience, we had the whole place to ourselves. There was also a full immersion flight simulator for J, to experience.

We wandered slowly, and tried to take it all in. So much to see, to read and to take in. It really was a beautiful and love filled day.

For dinner, I made him a yummy thick grass fed all natural New York steak, salad and onion rings. After dinner, I began baking the Duff’s designer cake mix. Suddenly, my MELTDOWN came on. I don’t always see them coming.  In fact, I rarely do.

I’ve had a lot on my mind, swirling swirling thoughts and feelings. I have felt isolated quite a bit. It’s come to the forefront once again, that outside my sweet and my daughter and grandchildren I have no connections. No true friends, no relationships outside of Facebook likes and work associates – even though I really do try to. With my daughter and grandchildren down in the lower 48, I only have J. When he and I don’t agree or even if he’s just sleeping etc, I am left alone with my brain.

My brain can be a terrible place, filled with anxiety and extremely depressing thoughts. Often when I have a really good day, it can come crashing down around me and I feel extreme lows. It’s part of my disorders, or it’s just how my lousy emotional and social skills surface.

Thank you for all of the kind words, and your continued visits. Be good to yourselves friends.



yellow roses

A dozen pale yellow roses with baby’s breath, for sale at the local market. Photo taken middle of October, 2015.

“Most of us don’t need a psychiatric therapist as much as a friend to be silly with.”
~Robert Brault, rbrault.blogspot.com

I really need to get silly soon, and have lots of laughs or I am going to need that psychiatrist again. Too much stress, and the inability to let it go. I have let so much of my mindfulness activities, and spiritual rituals go that I am now in a crag of sadness created by myself.

Livin’ the Life!

my big boy kitty

Porky, living the life so many of us dream of. March, of 2015.

“Cats are rather delicate creatures and they are subject to a good many ailments,
but I never heard of one who suffered from insomnia.” ~Joseph Wood Krutch

Be Flexible

kitty stretching

Stretch! A quick pic snapped with my webcam with my HP Google Chromebook laptop. It’s been edited a bit, because when I took it – the webcam had a filter applied to it. The scratcher was broken and bent, but since fixed by my sweets. Photo taken June, 2015.

“Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.”
~Author Unknown

The day I took this, it was super hot! It was in the eighties I believe, and it was about 92 degrees in our upstairs apartment (that’s ridiculous hot for Alaskans!) With no AC, and four fans blowing – we still needed somewhere for the hot air to go! Hence, the open front door. I’m not to keen on having the front door open, only because our apartments have an enclosed walkway/entrance and there is a lot of foot traffic. Who wants to watch people walk back and forth, trying to not or trying to look into your home? Not me, thanks! Anyway, that day it was a necessity!

I had some super ridiculous drama on FB last night (surprise, surprise right?) All about (originally) being understanding and tolerant of people. Which quickly became about what an old “hag” I am, and my psychiatric diagnoses where a lot of stigma & hate were thrown at me. I was even attacked about my blog, and was told I was going to lose my job when she shows my employer this positive place for photos and memories but, I digress. My point is, I am flexible. I am not so rigid in my mind that I need to insult, intimidate, pass judgement or use physical threats to get my way, or live my life! Bullying is so passé! Go in love & light my friends! Be flexible!


kelp bulbs

Kelp bulbs. Me & my sweets hands. May 09, 2015.

I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do. ~Edward Everett Hale

Our Anniversary

Is this a lily?

Does anyone know what kind of lily is this? Taken first week of March, 2015. In the supermarket.

My sweet and I met in California. It was a funny time for both of us in our lives. I remember the first day I met him, and he remembers meeting me too. The look in his eyes, will be burned in my memory forever. Our first real date was on St. Patricks day, that’s what we are celebrating today.

He has always made me laugh, sometimes too much. We’ve had quite a few ups and downs over the years, but every year things get just a bit smoother.  One of things I love best about him, is how he has always accepted me (no matter how many times I have evolved.) Every day, I know my best friend supports me and isn’t going anywhere – there is a real comfort in that.

For my gift to us, we went to the Alaska Aces game and tonight he is taking us out to dinner. It should be a fine occasion, he wants me to order lobster. In the past, I always thought the stuff was a bit over priced and overrated, but who knows? Maybe, tonight it will be perfect 🙂 Blessings & wishes of love for you, friends!

Alaska Aces Game



Alaska Aces collage. Playing against Colorado Eagles on 03-14-15 at George M. Sullivan Arena – Ben Boeke ice rink.

Please enjoy probably the worst photographs ever captured of a hockey game! To be honest, I was way more interested in hugging and cheering with my sweet and actually watching the game than taking pictures – so this is what we ended up with! It was our first professional hockey game/event and the whole thing was a tad overwhelming, but in a really good way.

To start, I’ve never purchased tickets off the Ticketmaster website (and I’ve been alive 40 years.) I tried not to over think it too much, because I might have talked myself out of getting the tickets for our anniversary. Parking to an event that is hosted in a building that was built for it, should be free. If you buy tickets to that event, you should get to park a vehicle for free. And, I didn’t see anywhere on the website that mentioned it was $6. Cash? Who carries cash? LOL, in a hurry driving past APD out of the parking lot we drove to the nearest Walgreens so I could get cash back for free. I like free, what can I say? So, I bought two bottles of OGX conditioner on sale and got us some play $$ back.

Frantically “behind schedule” (I’m a worry wart) we went running into will call to pick up our tickets and, got in the wrong will call line.  Apparently, there are two different will calls – idk why. Then the REAL FUN began! Trying to navigate the stadium and, we both agreed it didn’t make any sense and finally after moving about 4 times we finally were happy that we were in the seats I purchased. The seats were great! Before buying the tickets, I asked my honey where he wanted to sit because I didn’t know where would be best. He suggested a corner setting, and it was perfect we were able to see both goals and all the action. Lots of faces getting smashed into plexiglass and people beating the plastic. We were in the 2 row from the rink!

There are so many mini-games, chants, foot stomping, puck chucking and toys. Cowbells, kids screaming their heads off! Big men yelling insults at the opposing team. We also had an “expert” in the seat in front of us that pointed out every bad call or lack there of by the ref. It was frigging fantastic! Mascots dancing, kissing cams (we weren’t shown to our dismay) and weird horns, raffles and light shows! Wow! it was all worth it.

Our voices were gone, and our legs sore from stomping after the game we headed out to Subway and got a quick meal. It was just another really good day with my best friend of 8 years. ❤

8th Anniversary!

my sweet

On the marsh, look out station. 03/01/2015

For me and my sweets 8th anniversary, I purchased tickets to our first Alaska Aces game! We will be attending this Saturday, and I am really excited! How do you like hockey? Or which sport is your favorite? Not a sports fan?



macy surprise face

WTF!? says my cat. She was sleeping on the book I just bought. 02/25/2015

I snapped this yesterday with my old cellphone. I’m trying to rig it just as a camera. Macy was actually sound asleep with her face on the book but, the first picture I took blurred.  It blurred worse than this photo. It’s been edited with a few filters. The book is “Pepperoni Pizza Can Be Murder” by Chris Cavender.  Amazon gave me a free sample of “Thin Crust Killers” by the same author and I decided to pick up a copy from the culinary mystery series at my local used bookstore.

Currently, I am reading 3 books. Technically, it’s more than that because some I am only reading when I need to use the book as a reference. Some people might laugh, but I really enjoy these light & funny mystery murder books with themes. “Feta Attraction” by Susannah Hardy is another book I sampled, and I’m really interested in the “A Greek to Me Mystery series.” I’m really curious, what do you like to read?