Joy

fireweed

Taken today. August 20th, 2015. Fireweed, up close.

“By plucking her petals, you do not gather the beauty of the flower. ~Rabindranath Tagore”

I am so incredibly happy to present the first photo shared on this blog, taken with my new cellphone camera. As most of you who read this little diary know, I’ve been going through off and on again cellphone trouble all year. At the beginning of this week, my cellphone took it’s last breath (so to speak.) During phone calls it would garble, and cut out allowing me to hear only every other word or so. It would turn off and stopped taking photos a month or so ago, it feels like it’s been ages. I couldn’t take it anymore, and my work/life does require me to have a phone so we went to Walmart. For $59.00 totally not in the budget, I bought a prepaid AT&T Maven. These types of purchases are always a risk (remember how much I hated my last prepaid cellphone purchase? I donated that phone to a co-worker’s daughter.) I am glad to say I am thoroughly happy with this android. I’ve been using it all week but, I was afraid to take pictures lest I absolutely despise the quality. This morning, I decided it was time to test it out! I am very pleased 🙂

It’s a gorgeous day outside, the sun is shining an intense golden light. We did go out for awhile in it, perhaps too long as now I am in bed with my girl kitty Macy staring out the window. I feel kind of sick and burnt. My health hasn’t been the greatest, although it’s not the worst. I’ve had a burning heat from under my breasts and down through my belly to my hips today. Even my hands, and eyeballs feel hot. Perhaps an infection? Or, hormonal. It’s most likely the latter as I am having more trouble “downstairs.” My back aches with a constant soreness as I’m having a perpetual menstrual cycle. My OBGYN doctor removed my Mirena implant last week, and to everyone’s surprise (especially hers and mine) it HURT!!! It felt like a burning slice happened inside my body, in some untold location. My heart jumped up into my chest and my doctor jumped back saying “It’s out! It’s out! It’s OK.” J was afraid, the nurse seemed completely startled and my doctor looked worried. Crackers and juice were issued to me, and a suggestion of rest. There is a day surgery coming up, a D&C complete with a camera being inserted internally to help the doctor get a better look at things.

More than you wanted to know? Hey, it’s been like forever since we’ve been able to chat 😉

Keyboard

Last week, I noticed the backspace key on my HP Google Chromebook was sticking. In the morning my entire keyboard had stopped working.

Posting had been difficult, using my on screen keyboard. This post is from my cellphone. With my upcoming trip to California and working excessively, there has been no time to take it to the repair shop. That’s why my blogging has slowed down.

Thank you for your continued visits and comments!

Quick Question #2

Quick Poll

No Photos

I’m in a hurry LOL, it’s been a true Monday. Apparently, my attempts at saving posts to publish at a later date have failed. In fact, I suck at it. I will resume my regular attempts at posting either later tonight or tomorrow. Thank you, that is all 😉

2014 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 1,100 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 18 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

Peace // Stillness

orange candle burning bright

Orange candle just as it looked without edits, aside from adding my copyright.

I’ve had some health issues, new and old re-directing my life as of late. If you follow my spiritual blog, “Pocket Glass” you may see the photo of this beautiful orange candle burning ever so brightly in a post on that site as well. The nature of the main health issue is quite private so I won’t discuss it in detail here. On one hand, these issues feel like they are taking up much of my time and could keep me away from my little online journal but, I also feel it’s really important now for me to write as well. You may see many references to my beliefs here crossing over, keeping them only on my other blog is proving difficult.

Routines are very important to me, also my peace & quiet time. My poor sweetheart often feels left out, as I need alone time to reflect and meditate. I realize the goal is to be able to reach inside for that peace and bring it out into the world amidst all its chaos but, that goal for me has not yet been reached. It is something I try to work on daily. With this quiet, this stillness I hope to listen to my body and to hear it’s needs. I want to nourish the spirit within and heal my body but, I’ve got a long way to go. Let me leave you with this beautiful quote:

Listen to the inner light; it will guide you. Listen to inner peace; it will feed you. Listen to inner love; it will transform you, it will divinise you, it will immortalise you. – Sri Chinmoy

 

Pieces

mini dragon

My mini dragon figurine, made of plastic. A gift from my dear. Frost, stands about the size of a quarter, if that.

I promised new photographs, I don’t have any.  The plans I made for the 29th of October, really did not go as planned.  In fact, nothing really happened as planned the month of October. No new photos means looking through old photos. Looking through old photos, I can pick and choose what to show (just like with the new but a thought process began.) Little perfected snippets of my life that I am willing to display as my world.  Not entirely true or accurate but, an outsider would have little to compare it too so it appears true and whole. That’s how I look at myself. In pieces. I like parts of my body, parts of my face, parts of my personality, parts of who I am but, not as a whole.

I can browse through the occasional photograph that I let my honey take (most I delete) and I cringe. My eyes filter out how he might see me, and focus in great detail on the flaws and negative points visible to me.  Thinking to myself that maybe because I see myself in pieces, I will fall to pieces. This part is kind of rambly, like a thought could be a stone rattling around inside my head. Whether it’s polished and becomes something beautiful or busts into dust is yet to be known. Life happens, take photographs, ❤ yourself and others with all your heart.

Excuses, Excuses

cozy

My Hello Kitty Halloween themed socks and my favorite lap blanket with owls, gifted to me last Christmas. I am a fan of both Hello Kitty & Owls you see.

I’ve been a bit absent and somewhat half-arsed at this blog lately for a variety of reasons. One: it’s a bit more difficult to upload my photos from my cellphone/camera to my Google Chromebook with no importer app. On my Windows system I was able to use a downloaded version of Picasa however, with the Chromebook it’s all online and I can’t see a way to do the same action I have grown so accustomed to.  Two: It’s been a busy end of Mabon and with the upcoming Samhain so close upon us there has been a lot of activity in preparation. My honey’s birthday is also here! It’s his birthday today so I will be taking so more interesting (I hope) photographs than of things like my socks! (but aren’t they great?) Three: I’ve been trying to focus on some “me time.” Writing is an excellent outlet for my creativity and thought process however, I’ve been exercising those attributes in other ways – like crafting, drawing, cooking and baking. ❤ No worries, I’ll be back to it soon enough! Thank you for the continued visits & support!

Pocket Glass

For those who are unaware, I have a second blog: “Pocket Glass.”  It is my spiritual blog and mirror book journal, with practices of finding my path including pagan-ism, Tarot, witchcraft and spiritual energy.