Wedding Day

the mermaid

This photo was taken in the “shrine” area next to the large golden Buddha at The Mermaid Emporium. Anchorage, Alaska. Taken in October, of 2015.

“I dreamed of a wedding of elaborate elegance,
A church filled with family and friends.
I asked him what kind of a wedding he wished for,
He said one that would make me his wife.”
~Author Unknown

It’s today friends! Wish us luck!? 🙂 Blessings to all! ❤

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Riches

colorful flowers

Vibrant green and purple flowers. Sent to J for his birthday, from his Mother. Birthday in October, photo taken in November of 2015.

Who is rich? He who rejoices in his portion. ~The Talmud

Meditation

yellow and green blooms

A quick snapshot of the flowers for sale, at the local market. November, 2015.

Today, I took some of the first steps returning to my spiritual path. It feels good, and Goddess knows I need it. Thank you Universe! ❤

Hallelujah!

tree leaves

Orange tree leaves, like fire on the branches of trees. Mid-October, 2015.

“October is a hallelujah!
reverberating in my body year-round…”
~John Nichols

Ramble

parrot

This is our friend Denail. He is a grey African parrot at a local shop. October 10th will be his 21st birthday!

Happy Birthday to our sweet feathered friend Denali! On October 10th he will be 21 years of age! How fantastic is that!? 🙂

Ok, that’s great about the bird but where have I been? (I hope some of you ask.) I don’t know what happened but, I dropped off the blogging map for a bit. Today, I’m plopped on my sofa watching Chopped Canada (boy that’s a weird version of the show.) Yesterday, I spent the day with the lovely J and tooled about town. We visited Denali, if you didn’t notice. He’s quite the character.

The week before, I worked 7 days in a row and ended up doing over time several days on top of that. It’s kind of funny because my job is not a critical type of role in the world like doctor, paramedic or something where you can see the need to work such long hours but yet, I do. It’s the standing joke that I actually never go home, I sleep on a cot in the back – if I actually slept. But no, I do go home. It’s been quite nice too, because J has been keeping on the dishes & cleaning so I just get to climb into bed and die for the evening. That’s what it feels like anyway.

Post op update: I’ve broken all the rules. I’m the worst patient ever. Same day of surgery, we went grocery shopping. Second day after surgery I was in pain. One week after surgery, I had sexual intercourse (oh my!) with my honey and one and a half weeks after I took a bath. This morning, I just had to have a hot bath – I couldn’t take it any longer. I was supposed to wait two weeks for both sex and bath, but I knew I would never make it that long.

And now for the weird wrap up to this rambling post. Who knew it would go from a bird’s birthday to sex talk but hey, that’s just part of who I am.

“I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes
several days attack me at once.”
~Jennifer Yane

Just Breathe

tulips

My #selfcareseptember two-tone tulips starting to blossom. A photo from my Instagram.

“Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is
the rest we take between two deep breaths.”
~Etty Hillesum

The Autumnal

decaying plant

After the rain. First day of Autumn, 2015.

“No spring nor summer’s beauty hath such grace
As I have seen in one Autumnal face….”
~John Donne, “Elegy IX: The Autumnal”

Full Moon Blessings

photo

Another photo edited to make use of a slightly blurry & un-interesting photo of miscellaneous things in my cabinet.

“May you have warm words on a cool evening, a full moon on a dark night, and a smooth road all the way to your door.”  ~Irish Toast

This morning when leaving for work at just before 5 am, we saw the big beautiful golden full moon. It’s not the first time ever, mind you. It’s just been a season since we’ve been able to truly view the moon with a velvet black sky behind it, surrounded by smoky looking clouds and sparkling stars. Summer in Alaska is the season of the sun. It is “the land of the midnight sun.” We have reached the beginning of fall, and now sister moon returns to us (even tho she never really left.)

There is a peacefulness that I find at night, in the dark. Winter’s coldness feels right to me. If my living circumstances were different, I suppose I might feel differently. But right here, right now after working day 8 of 12.. it feels absolutely perfect. There is a chill in my bedroom. We are cuddled up, and J is already napping. The kitties, are napping and being surrounded by pillows & covers in the middle of the afternoon is beyond comforting. I feel peaceful, and at rest.

Full moon blessings to you, my friends . . * . * )0( * . *. .

Nothing but Roses

red rose

A vibrant red rose the size of a cabbage in McKinley Park, Sacramento California.

“Children begin by loving their parents; as they grow older they judge them;
sometimes they forgive them.” ~Oscar Wilde

In the late afternoon, on my birthday we went to McKinley park in Sacramento, California which has a poignant place in my memory. It is a secret marker, a milestone of sorts. It was important for me to return, and my daughter’s family made that happen.

We strolled around the pond first, we looked at and photographed trees (well I did) and we also got to introduce her (my Granddaughter) to some baby geese! Once she saw them, she was captivated! A lady jogger ran through them, getting close to the babies and taking photos on her cellphone. It was at that moment, my Granddaughter recognized that as bad and said “no,no, no!” It was adorable.

She and I held hands and walked around the roses. Each was a brand new gift of excitement and wonder to her. It was fantastic! She expressed in her youth and inexperience, just exactly how I still feel when I look at beautiful flowers. She didn’t want to walk on the grass, so we stuck to the paved pathways. This walk through a park, will also be one of the greatest times of my life and I am forever grateful.

Update: She’s conquered her hesitance towards the grass!

Root Chakra

red flowers

Vibrant red/fuchsia flowers, outside for sale at the market. May 31st, 2015.

“There is deep wisdom within our very flesh,
if we can only come to our senses and feel it.”
~Elizabeth A. Behnke

It’s a dreary day today, it’s been raining the past few days. Well, actually we only had one day where there was a heavy rain fall.  Usually, rain in Anchorage is more of a drizzly mist but the other day, it poured! It was kind of amazing. Dreary days, not so amazing. Sometimes it’s humid and overcast, which is the kind of weather mosquitoes LOVE! Yesterday afternoon, the sun came out but the winds were so strong it felt kind of unsafe to be outside. It’s like they say tho, “Don’t like the weather? Wait 5 minutes, it’ll change.”

Sometimes my moods can change just as quick, and sometimes I get into a deep funk. My living situation (the quality of life,) the factor of physical pain, and tedious vile complications in work relationships have stirred up and thickened some old depressions. When I look at my life, my home, my work experiences I just see broken records skipping, skipping, skipping – playing that same incomplete tune over and over again.

I saw a new chiropractor who used a special table. Which with the use of ankle cuffs stretched my back, there was elevation/twisting/and some minor pain but, there was also relief.  Then, a negative bug dug it’s way into my brain! How could I warrant taking two buses to the hospital, and two buses on the way home (about a 3 hour trip) for a 15 minute appointment? Sure, there is some temporary relief but I don’t want to go to the hospital every week, or twice a week every week as he originally prescribed. So, I cancelled all of my appointments.

My apartment was a Godsend at the time we moved in, almost 4 years ago. We really needed to get out of where we were but now, it’s too small and too old. All of the outlets are on one side of the apartment. The bathroom door is right next to the fridge. The only two windows that open, are the small bathroom window (which means we must always look at the toilet through the kitchen) and the bedroom window – there is no air flow. The bedroom is opposite of the bathroom (imagine a c shape) and our front windows are merely for light, they do not open. Through the front windows you can see the enclosed walkway to our apartments, so if you want to let the little sunshine you get in you must be comfortable with everyone that walks by looking in and you seeing them! It’s frustrating. It also needs new paint, new carpet and linoleum but, our building owner is a bit of a slum lord. Most of the apartments are furnished (ours isn’t) so, it invites a lot of “come & go” types, party people, and in my opinion undesirables. It’s time to move.

Today is my day off, and as usual I am battling the idea of cleaning over relaxing and relaxing over cleaning. I will tear myself up physically and emotionally trying to be everything, do everything and rest all at the same time. I’m holding up too many spinning pie plates and I feel like they are all going to come crashing down, soon.