Who is rich? He who rejoices in his portion. ~The Talmud
“Is the blue sky happy?
It is doing its daily duty,
Of course it is happy.”
“By plucking her petals, you do not gather the beauty of the flower. ~Rabindranath Tagore”
I am so incredibly happy to present the first photo shared on this blog, taken with my new cellphone camera. As most of you who read this little diary know, I’ve been going through off and on again cellphone trouble all year. At the beginning of this week, my cellphone took it’s last breath (so to speak.) During phone calls it would garble, and cut out allowing me to hear only every other word or so. It would turn off and stopped taking photos a month or so ago, it feels like it’s been ages. I couldn’t take it anymore, and my work/life does require me to have a phone so we went to Walmart. For $59.00 totally not in the budget, I bought a prepaid AT&T Maven. These types of purchases are always a risk (remember how much I hated my last prepaid cellphone purchase? I donated that phone to a co-worker’s daughter.) I am glad to say I am thoroughly happy with this android. I’ve been using it all week but, I was afraid to take pictures lest I absolutely despise the quality. This morning, I decided it was time to test it out! I am very pleased 🙂
It’s a gorgeous day outside, the sun is shining an intense golden light. We did go out for awhile in it, perhaps too long as now I am in bed with my girl kitty Macy staring out the window. I feel kind of sick and burnt. My health hasn’t been the greatest, although it’s not the worst. I’ve had a burning heat from under my breasts and down through my belly to my hips today. Even my hands, and eyeballs feel hot. Perhaps an infection? Or, hormonal. It’s most likely the latter as I am having more trouble “downstairs.” My back aches with a constant soreness as I’m having a perpetual menstrual cycle. My OBGYN doctor removed my Mirena implant last week, and to everyone’s surprise (especially hers and mine) it HURT!!! It felt like a burning slice happened inside my body, in some untold location. My heart jumped up into my chest and my doctor jumped back saying “It’s out! It’s out! It’s OK.” J was afraid, the nurse seemed completely startled and my doctor looked worried. Crackers and juice were issued to me, and a suggestion of rest. There is a day surgery coming up, a D&C complete with a camera being inserted internally to help the doctor get a better look at things.
More than you wanted to know? Hey, it’s been like forever since we’ve been able to chat 😉
Life has been a bit of a juggling act! It’s been busy but good! The beginning of October was difficult for me. I think it’s a compilation of factors, change in season, the effects of the full moon on my body & emotions and a change in the work place. All big, BIG things to deal with. Last year I was supposed to upgrade my laptop, but it never happened because well I needed to pay bills and buy food to eat. I thought maybe I wouldn’t be able to do it this year either, but then I discovered the HP Google Chromebook at my local Fred Meyer’s store. It was just my style! Light weight, efficient and had a great price tag on it! $ So, I finally bit the bullet. Best Buy is where I actually bought it as it was out of stock at FM’s, and I was able to get a price match. The system has been a little different and so since I’m a creature of habit and my beloved routines, it’s taken me a bit to get a blog post out.
The photo was taken yesterday. Yesterday was a perfect day. Filled with love for my guy and life. We got up in the morning and showered together, got a quick bite for breakfast and then headed out on a “leaf hunt” for Thanksgiving Day planner project I am working on. We spent the day together, and well since my last post – a lot of my days have been like this: dreamy. Be good to yourself folks, you deserve it.
On this walk through the park towards work, it felt like a perfect day. The air was cool but not cold, it was a little overcast but there was some sun. The colors were vibrant, in this season of change. I felt really good, filled with a positive feeling that everything was going to be alright. In actuality, there were plenty of problems that day and I met and handled each the best I could.
I wish, I wish I could bottle that feeling though – that everything is going to be alright. Having such a positive attitude really does HELP in those times of difficulty (at least for me.) There are days that I wake up and feel nothing like that. There are days when I wake up sad or feeling defeated, I don’t understand why. As I walked under the yellow canopy of these trees, I couldn’t but dream about all my future days feeling as good as this day did.
“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” –Albus Dumbledore
I’m a bit bothered about some stuff that really does no good to speak about here, BUT it did make me think of this quote from one of the Harry Potter movies.. specifically: “Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.” Yep, I’m a fan – now you know 😉
A rose a day will keep the doctor away 😉 (ps I have no idea if this statement is true – haha)
I took this photo last week but when I was going through my albums, I decided it best represented what’s in my heart tonight. Big, sunny, yellow, happy, HOPE. I will keep pushing forward in my faith, that things are looking up.
Today my heart is full with happiness. I took a photo of this pink flower in a garden back in 2011, here in Alaska. While organizing the thousands of photographs stored on my laptop and online, I came across this picture (which I modified.) The soft petals and various shades of pink was the best representation of how my heart, felt. Not perfect, but smiling on the inside.
I need a quick pick me up today. Life (for me) can sometimes be a tricky balancing act. Over the years, I learned there must be both ups and downs, dark & light in order for us to appreciate the good in life. For many years, I needed to maintain a plateau. I would squash any feelings down that were too happy because I was afraid of how bad I would feel when I hit a bump in the road. No ups, no downs, no real dark or light with only gray became a boring existence. Right now I feel a bit rough and the road is bumpy but instead of trying to remove all the rocks in the road I currently travel, I am just going to keep my head up and look towards the sun. Orange is the color of happiness and joy, today I will keep these pretty little orange flowers in my mind’s eye and carry them with me all day long.