Wedding Day

the mermaid

This photo was taken in the “shrine” area next to the large golden Buddha at The Mermaid Emporium. Anchorage, Alaska. Taken in October, of 2015.

“I dreamed of a wedding of elaborate elegance,
A church filled with family and friends.
I asked him what kind of a wedding he wished for,
He said one that would make me his wife.”
~Author Unknown

It’s today friends! Wish us luck!? 🙂 Blessings to all! ❤

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Riches

colorful flowers

Vibrant green and purple flowers. Sent to J for his birthday, from his Mother. Birthday in October, photo taken in November of 2015.

Who is rich? He who rejoices in his portion. ~The Talmud

Just Shine Your Light!

signal light

Some kind of signaling light apparatus (I’m so not aviation or technically inclined) in the old tower, at the Alaska Aviation Heritage Museum.

“It is when we are most lost that we sometimes find our truest friends.”
― Cynthia Rylant, Walt Disney’s Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs

Daily Duty

blue sky

Blue sky over Lake Hood. On October 29th, 2015.

“Is the blue sky happy?
It is doing its daily duty,
Of course it is happy.”
~Terri Guillemets

Love Triangle

old newspaper

An article at the aviation museum on display. The headline was regarding the aircrash death of Will Rogers will in Alaska.

“We choose those we like; with those we love,
we have no say in the matter.”
~Mignon McLaughlin

Happy Halloween!

pumpkin pie pumpkins

Organic pumpkins for pumpkin pie, on sale at local market. End of October, 2015.

“When black cats prowl and pumpkins gleam,
May luck be yours on Halloween.”
~Author Unknown

Aviation Musem

Yesterday, on my sweets birthday we went to the Alaska Aviation Heritage Museum. It was a wonderful experience, we had the whole place to ourselves. There was also a full immersion flight simulator for J, to experience.

We wandered slowly, and tried to take it all in. So much to see, to read and to take in. It really was a beautiful and love filled day.

For dinner, I made him a yummy thick grass fed all natural New York steak, salad and onion rings. After dinner, I began baking the Duff’s designer cake mix. Suddenly, my MELTDOWN came on. I don’t always see them coming.  In fact, I rarely do.

I’ve had a lot on my mind, swirling swirling thoughts and feelings. I have felt isolated quite a bit. It’s come to the forefront once again, that outside my sweet and my daughter and grandchildren I have no connections. No true friends, no relationships outside of Facebook likes and work associates – even though I really do try to. With my daughter and grandchildren down in the lower 48, I only have J. When he and I don’t agree or even if he’s just sleeping etc, I am left alone with my brain.

My brain can be a terrible place, filled with anxiety and extremely depressing thoughts. Often when I have a really good day, it can come crashing down around me and I feel extreme lows. It’s part of my disorders, or it’s just how my lousy emotional and social skills surface.

Thank you for all of the kind words, and your continued visits. Be good to yourselves friends.

Asshole

lake hood

Beautiful sunset over Lake Hood. October 29th, 2015.

You (and I mean, me.) just absolutely have to love when someone calls you an asshole. Especially when you’ve spent half a grand over the course of a month to celebrate someone’s birth. My life is shit, it’s always been shit and for some stupid fucking reason I feel the need to try and glorify it. I don’t know why.

Family has just about given me the boot over it. Actually, almost none of my family talks to me. I am a very lonely person. My life is crap and I’m trying so damn freaking hard to at least make it seem quaint. I’m failing.

The Reindeer Farm

My sweet and I went out to the Williams Reindeer Farm in Palmer, Alaska this last weekend. We had never been to visit before, it was a great experience. “October Fun” is geared towards families with small children but, we are both just big kids at heart! ❤

The drive was nice. We don’t drive outside of town to often (even though we’d like too.) The trees are bare, and there is still no snow on the ground. Our winter is projected to be mild again this year. Driving on the Old Glenn Highway was a first time experience for me. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen a two lane highway!

The farm had a pen where reindeer could be hand-fed but, most were full and completely uninterested in accepting any more pellets from the hundreds of people visiting. It was wonderful to see them so close. There were some beautiful racks on those reindeer. Reminded me of trees.

There was also live music, a gift shop with snacks and Husky burgers for sale. Face painting, a Spooky Walk (haunted house for kids) a bunny holding area, hay maze and more. It was a windy day but, gosh I had a darn good time! I will most likely use more of our photos in future posts. And, if you are wondering.. yes, I’ve eaten reindeer. It’s good. It’s usually mixed with ground beef and made into hot dogs or sausages.

Eternity

pink blooms

Exotic pink blooms. Can you name them? October, 2015.

“From my rotting body, flowers shall grow and
I am in them and that is eternity.”
~Edvard Munch