Fresh

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Cream colored roses and other greenery. In a bouquet, at the local market. Taken in November, 2015.

“Tomorrow is fresh, with no mistakes in it.”
~L.M. Montgomery

Forget Perfect

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White & pink lily? I’m not sure of the name. Soft filter applied, just for that dreamier affect. Mid-October, 2015.

“Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything,
That’s how the light gets in.”
~Leonard Cohen

Up Close & Purple

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Up close to a small purple flowering plant, for sale at the local market. Taken in June, of 2015 with my Samsung G2 cell phone camera (when it still worked.)

Swish * swoosh goes the washing machine that is my life. Constant agitation works well for washing clothes, but when in regards to my delicate sensibilities it becomes just plain irritating. Change is good right? Learning, growing, struggle and overcoming life’s daily battles – it’s what this is all about right?

I wonder if ants get depressed about their assigned role in their life, this huge world around them? Do the female ants envy and daydream about being the Queen ant? I suppose not, so why should I just because I am a human? Ant drone, human drone, we are all cogs in this great Universal machine. What does it produce? Is the final product of our lives really that different for each of us? It must.. Or in the greater view, does it all look about the same?

Questions, I always have questions. Too many questions. Sometimes, I even have answers but those shift/change/fade/evolve which usually just leads me to more questions. And again, I wonder.. do ants have questions? swish * swoosh

Bright Spot

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Inside the local grocery. Mid-April. It was a bad day, but it got better. – Flower, Orange Star.

The day I took this photo, I was having an incredibly bad day. It took much effort on my part, and on my sweets to turn my mood around. He pointed these flowers out to me.

Today, was a fantastic day! In fact, I had my stuff together and everything fell into place. Despite how great it all was, I took time to remind myself that every day can’t be like today and that every day isn’t as bad as the other day.

Every part of my experience in this world takes effort, and sometimes it’s real work. Whether, life throws monkey wrenches at me, or handfuls of chocolate my reaction/action/perspective is entirely up to me. My world, is mine to create! The power is yours for you as well 🙂

It Gets Better

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March 18, 2015

In January of this year, I accepted a job with a company that gave me a title, a pretty sizeable bump in pay and good hours – full-time, over-time etc. It has come with many twists & turns, surprises & petty hassles. Despite having thoughts that it was a mistake to accept work with this new company, I have not given up – nor will I.  Initially, the issue was a complete lack of training and some conflict I cannot discuss that was the major bumps in the road.

Lately however, it’s my inability to let things go. It’s important to me (as silly as it maybe to some) that things work in general as they should.  I realize situations occur when one must “go with the flow” and that somethings go on the fritz and you just got to “ride them out.” That’s not what I’m talking about here, no I mean that if there is a lock on a door or a box that in general means it should be locked.. especially, if keys are issued to that lock. Do I let this go? Just lock it and forget about it? What if stuff is missing? What if someone should be held accountable? What if everyone you ask, hasn’t got anything to say in return? Take it to a higher up? But, what if then I’m a “complainer” or… I don’t know my mind can come up with a lot.

My job in respect to the world as a whole, is not important. It might matter a skooch in the community where I work, to some but in the end.. my job is only really important to me and the family members I care for with the funds from said job. I like my job! I want my job but, I can’t get past unlocked locks and other unresolved problems above my pay grade. We all must choose our own battles, but I just keep telling myself “it’s going to get better!”

And now, I’m thinking I shouldn’t have written any of this seeing how I use my real name and all! Stay positive friends!

Too Much Sass

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Closeup of a bouquet of flowers at the market. First week of March, 2015

Tired and cranky.  On day 6 of work, with another early day of work tomorrow. I’m usually up at 3 am.  I like getting off work early so there are no true complaints there. Yesterday, I started to crash midday and get really tired. Droopy eyelids and nasty attitude quickly followed.  I took a nap, and went to bed at a decent time last night but this morning there it still was.  A quick tree meditation with my branches reaching towards the sky and my roots running through the ground, quickly cleared my mind.  The sun shone in my face and I felt a breeze, I envisioned blossoms on my branches and saw a bird in a nest.  While outside, it’s 5 degrees. I’m going to do my best to enjoy the gift of today. Blessings friends. xo

Unlock The Box

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Purple orchids, at the market 02/05/15

Sometimes, I spend way too much time inside my head. Wrapped up in my own little world. Going for walks, taking photographs, touching different textures and embracing new things are some of the little things that help me unlock the box.

Courage

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Sunset on 1/10/15

Courage doesn’t always roar.  Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.  ~Mary Anne Radmacher

Keep Your Head UP!

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A red flower, from the summer 2014

“Always hold your head up, but be careful to keep your nose at a friendly level.” ~Max L. Forman