Daily Duty

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Blue sky over Lake Hood. On October 29th, 2015.

“Is the blue sky happy?
It is doing its daily duty,
Of course it is happy.”
~Terri Guillemets

Friends

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Kelp bulbs. Me & my sweets hands. May 09, 2015.

I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do. ~Edward Everett Hale

No Place

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Almost a sundog, at Delong Lake. Late April, 2015.

“You can’t run away from trouble. There ain’t no place that far.” ~Uncle Remus

Still in a funk. Not sleeping right, boredom at work and on my mind – my back trouble. Last week, I was told by my chiropractor who was looking at x-rays done in 2009 that I have a Pars defect of the spine. New x-rays were taken to be graded and reviewed for Spondylolisthesis.

Otherwise

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Fire Island in the not so far distance, on the left. Mid-April, 2015. Very strong but warm winds off the water.

If God had wanted me otherwise, He would have created me otherwise. ~Johann von Goethe

Life Can Be Tough

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Green coral at Alaska Coral Fanatics, Anchorage Alaska.

“There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without but have to let go.”  ~Author Unknown

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I get beat down. Every day living, can really wear you out. The daily mini-dramas, rules, social interactions etc – it can be a bit much. People who see me at work think I’m a friendly outgoing person, the joker and easy breezy to be around. The person who doesn’t see me only at work, knows a lot better. Things bother me, details get to me, I feel pressure and conflicted. I also tend to internalize almost everything.

Although I am not exactly sure where I am going with this post, I felt I better get some of these thoughts out of my head. Tonight, I let go what no longer serves me and I welcome new experiences & lessons!

Making Time

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Alaska Coral Fanatics,, April of 2015.

We are told that one day consists of  24 hours. I sleep about 8 hours (haha, try 6) a night. Work with travel to and from takes up about 10 hours of my day. Which leaves approximately 8 hours to shower, eat, do chores, run errands and hopefully do something that interests me. Making time for meditation or self-care (whatever I deem is necessary that day.)

My self-care can consist of reading, extra time taking care of my physical body, altar work & prayer or a long walk in the woods. It often involves, taking cellphone photographs to use in my blog, and trying to actually write a post. You often just get a quote, because I as a human with no small children to care for or, any real extracurricular activities/responsibilities still can barely find time to keep nail polish on my toenails or finish a book.

Most days I try to “balance” what I do, a little bit of everything. Other days, I focus only on “priorities.” How do you make or find time? What do you do with it? I’d really like to know!

Mixed Up

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Blue striped fish, at Alaska Coral Fanatics 04/12/15.

Every once in awhile, I get a bit mixed up. Usually, it’s when I’m not able to follow my self-care routine. Stress, builds up and sometimes I got to let off steam. With all of the build up of not being able to blog, working non-stop before my trip and then straight back to work practically in less than 8 hours. Not to mention, my emotions have been a little mixed up.

It was FANTASTIC to see my daughter and her beautiful children! Words cannot describe what it was like to hold that little baby girl in my arms, to hear her laugh and get her sweet kisses. It was all very overwhelming. My heart is strong but, sometimes my mind & body are weak. It was heartbreaking to fly away. My home is Alaska, but maybe my home can be anywhere – where my heart is.

My sweet has been very patient with me, and loving. My cats are absolutely in tune with my feelings, and have been by my side non-stop. I look forward, to getting myself back on track and moving in a more positive direction! Cheers friends, xo.

Invisible Veins

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End of March, Alaska 2015

Beyond my body my veins are invisible.

~Antonio Porchia, Voces, 1943,

translated from Spanish by W.S. Merwin